WATER THE GRASS YOU HAVE

Poor Chrishell man. Yeah I watch "Selling Sunset." I love seeing all those huge amazing houses. I don't love the girl drama but man I felt so bad for Chrishell when her husband just up and divorced her out of nowhere. They have a little fight and don't talk for a night and the next morning he texts her that he's already been to the court house and filed. Just like that. I could see what she was going through emotionally. She was in shock, like getting hit by a truck. Little did she know that he had been cheating on her for years and ended up marrying that girl as soon as the divorce went through. At least she had answers at that point. I was really impressed with her strength though and the way she pulled herself up and ended up buying her own multi-million dollar house that no one could kick her out of. Inspiring. But the thing she said that really hit me and stuck with me the most when she was talking g about her then husband was, "Maybe instead of going out and looking for grass that's greener, you should spend some time watering the grass that you have." Or something like that. Damn that made me think. Is that exactly what I did? When my grass started to turn brown did I run off looking for a greener patch? Probably, sadly. As late as it is, and after all the shit that's happened as a result, I do think I've finally picked up the watering can. The good thing in all this was that it did force us to work on our relationship and the crazy thing is that working on something does actually make it better. I feel like we have made a ton of progress from where we were. Where we are now, is still a long way from where j want to be. There's still a lot of work we need to do, and it's hard. Damn it's been hard. But I made a promise to pick up that watering can every single day and give that grass a drink. There might not be flowers everywhere quite yet and nothing but lush green, but I don't think it's in danger of dying. I can't let it die. I straight refuse. I hope it never comes close again. My little seedlings are too precious and they need a place to grow.